It is in the darkness that I feel it,
In the late hours of the night when the only person awake to hear my cries is my own conscious.
She doesn't help.
She takes all of my insecurities and heightens their intensity, making the pain unbearable.
I walked by a couple making out in the fitness center on my way back to my room tonight.
I almost stopped to watch.
There is this intense desire to be loved gnawing at my inner being.
A hole in my heart that I want someone to fill.
It seems like everyone has their happily ever after, and I'm stuck waiting.
Waiting for something I don't even know exists.
Am I not worthy enough to fall in love?
Is something wrong with me?
I wonder sometimes if it's the people I interact with.
If I hung out with the sororities would I find love?
The athletic kids?
The theater geeks?
I know it isn't true, but there is always this feeling in the back of my mind...
Is it my disability that keeps people away?
Are they scared of me?
Do I deserve love?
Beautiful, lovely ❤
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